Blue skies shining on me...

Corbett | February 16, 2004 11:39 AM

When the weather's nice like recently, and you can actually see the blue sky, and feel the sun all over your face, it reminds me of college for some reason. After all those miserable hours studying, cramming, reading, or going to lectures, I can only really remember the feeling of being outside. Usually on a bike, or in my car, or sitting on some grass, or watching people walk by, or walking to the market. Funny that after 17 years that's all I remember, a feeling of pure freedom.

I've sort of kept tabs on a few friends from back then. Not many. Most have kids, a mortgage, are in senior positions, and have finally figured out what they wanted to do. My last 17 years were completely backwards: The first thing I did was what I had always wanted to do, I owned a house, had a daughter, and was on the right track. Now, I've got rid of the house, am not doing what I originally thought I wanted to do, daughter is grown, and I'm back to square one. It's an odd sense of freedom, knowing you made it through the rat race intact, even though you walked backwards through it. But what next?

Not quite ready to have the midlife crisis, no interest in red sports cars or young chicks, and I'm not loosing my hair or getting fat. I'm almost exactly the same as I was when I was in college, just older.

And today, the weather is nice, I can see the blue sky, and I feel free.

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Category: Ramble

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