Limbo day

Corbett | November 8, 2005 2:12 PM

Today is one of those weird days that just sort of hangs in limbo.

I had to dig through five boxes filled with 110 years of Wall family photographs, documents, and momentos, searching for one document in a manila envelope I carelessly placed in one of the boxes before shipping it all back to Taiwan. It has eluded me for months.

I found the document finally (in the last box), but also uncovered a lot of left over feelings for the past. I found a diary I kept while taking a three month long bike trip through the east coast of the US. I was reading a lot of Sam Beckett at the time, so the diary is introspective in a weird way. As I read it I could see everything all over again from the eyes of a 21 year old. I saw all my old grade school report cards, my music certificates and awards, and I also found all my old essays, writings, poems, short stories from college. It was hard to remember back that far, but I have to admit there was some good stuff in there. I might have been a writer if the ball bounced a different way.

Women also played a pivotal role in my development, as there were always plenty of them around, and it was strange to meet them once again in photographs or letters. One nice leftover was realizing that my best friend then is still my best friend now.

Recently I've been thinking about the things I've accomplished, or haven't accomplished, and I realized that I don't really care much either way anymore. Maybe that's bad. It used to mean a lot to attain one of my goals. Whether it was releasing a new album, or visiting a new country, or starting a new business, whatever, it all meant something. These days, it seems that the daily motion of daily life is good enough. Whether that's Taiwan or old age, it's hard to tell.



Category: Ramble

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Christofu

November 10, 2005 3:37 AM

Some more memories of that trip...
- creating a scavenger hunt for a certain someone
- staying at the house of the Pepsico CEO in Stamford
- drinking coffee milk at that little diner in Providence
- the disappearing camera
- in NYC for the Statue of Liberty celebration, fireworks at Battery Park
- World Sax Quartet in Harlem, scary walk back to Columbia U.

That couldn't have been 20 years ago.


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